... this is what my husband has been frequently asking me during the last days.
The sky is beautiful at this time of the year because the air is cleaner than ever and objects appear perfectly clean-cut.
Also within the city.
I think there is no better time than September to take pictures. Well, now is October.... but autumn seems to be late this year and the light is still different, the countryside is different, shadows are perfect and colours are so bright.
Sunday evening we went to see the sunset on a hill near my parents' home and it was so good: I mean, we hadn't our camera and this was a pity since we could have collected fantastic shoots, but however we enjoyed the landscape and the light just for ourselves, which is always nice.
And everything was calm and silent.
In moments like those, I remember my childhood in the countryside and, particularly, the breath-taking view during sunset and sunrise. The sunbeams passed gently through the leaves and the orange, warm light touched my face, my eyes and everything else around me. In October, sometimes, temperatures had already dropped, but I remember the sunlight was quite warm anyway. And I felt so well. I felt in peace with the entire world.
Of course I had just some minor problem with the world itself since I was a child. But a child has got his troubles, somehow, and in those moments they simply went away.
I really would like to change my life, now. I fell so uncomfortable within this city and with my job, which I don’t love anymore. I often freak out and I am so nervous... This is a bad situation: I understand that I need to do something to improve my existence, but can’t do it. I’m not able nor I know were to start.
I just would like to come back to the countryside and to stay in peace, into the nature, maybe with some animals. Maybe I could write tales for children, maybe I could bake tasty cakes. Maybe we shall have a child or two and teach them how a simple existence may be fantastic. We could live with less stuff, less stress, less trouble. But in return we shall have more time to think about what is really important (which does not necessary mean what we actually have), more time to read (a real paper book, smelling of past memories, not an anonymous internet link, were to find some explanations about life), more time to speak each other (we have to, if we are looking for a way to understand our needs), more time to love people the way they are (without trying to change them every single day), more time to watch the beauty of nature all around, because sometimes we are so busy that we forget to consider how much we miss, everyday..
For example: we are now about to buy a car and I keep asking myself everyday if it is necessary. Of course a car is useful when you need to visit someone or when you carry heavy shopping. But since we were in England we have been leaving without it (now we are using the car of my father in law just during the week end) and I don’t want to become a slave of it!
Oh my god, I’m going crazy. Is almost everything in my life to be re-evaluated? Luckily there is at least something that works: my marriage. It’s probably the only aspect of my life that I would never change.
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